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Archive for August, 2012

If I thought for a week…

The other day I was commiserating with some of my online friends who are in similar health situations. Overweight, outside the box, not getting any outside help, and very frustrated.

I said that if I’d sat down for a week and specifically tried to come up with a plan to completely ruin my health and internal balance, I couldn’t have come up with as comprehensive and destructive a program as I lived randomly.

Unless you subscribe to the ‘choose your own reality’ paradigm, in which case I did, indeed, sit down and give some thought to the most direct route to systemic failure.

I’m not going to weigh in on that one.

Where I’m going with this is, every time I identify one area of systemic failure, it points to new ones I hadn’t identified yet.

Weeks before I started my first round of hcg, I started taking a very small dose of progesterone. Progesterone is an important hormone and a precursor to many others, specifically cortisol and the other adrenal hormones. I’d really like to get to the point where I don’t need cortisol supplementation specifically, but can figure out what other raw materials I can provide so that my body has everything it needs to work properly on its own. Its been a year now, I think my adrenal system might be ready to get back to work on a full time basis. I hope.

Because I’m me, I had to have a completely insane reaction to it. My legs swelled up until they hurt. Not my fingers, not my face, nothing else, just my legs. weird. I did a lot of reading and online research. I didn’t come to any particular conclusions. I went off the supplement, when on hcg, and all the water weight went away, along with some other real weight.

That didn’t stop me from really believing that the supplementation was necessary and important. So as I neared my second planned round of hcg, I tried again. Same reaction. So I switched to pregnenolone, a precursor, thinking it might have less of a reaction. Nope. Same thing, just as bad. More research. A LOT more research. I asked people. I read more. Eventually I found that estrogen dominance, being treated with progesterone, can, sometimes, rarely, have this effect, and it can last somewhere between a week and 3 months.

Oh Joy.

Because I feel much, much better while taking pregnenolone, aside from my legs aching, I decided to see if I could stay the course and work through it. Just in the last few days my legs have finally, finally given in to the water wasting powers of an extreme diet and they are where they should be. whew.

I hope things are settled now and it won’t come back when I finish this round. But I won’t know for a few more weeks. Fingers crossed.


Note: I wrote this a while back intending to publish it ‘in a few days’ and then didn’t. The info is relevant to a new post I’m writing that I hope I’ll do better posting in a timely fashion. We’ll see won’t we?

Sick of Stress

Or is that sick from stress?

Both for me.

I recently had one of those ‘life lessons’ periods where I let myself get so upset about a perceived problem that I physically and emotionally ran myself into the ground.

Of course, at the end of the experience everything turned out fine and I realized that all that stress and freaking out was completely unnecessary, which just made the whole situation worse as far as I was concerned.

Then, just to make the whole learning experience really complete for me, I got sick. Completely sick, snotty and disgusting and everything, for the first time in several years. I’ve been under the weather a few times, had some episodes of not-quite-up-to-snuff, but I haven’t been ‘please kill me now’ sick in a long time.

My beloved brought something really special home from Miami I guess. Thanks Honey.

I’m sharing this not just to let my readers know that I did not fall off the face of the earth nor, despite my wishes at the time, did I die a horrible death, but because it was an important lesson for me. One I seem to need to keep repeating, so I hope that enumerating it will help it sink in better.

The body and mind are strongly connected and if your mind is all twisted up, your body is doomed.

The only thing that was really different this time compared to all the other times in the last few years that my beloved has gotten sick when I didn’t was that I had tied my mind and emotions up in complete knots dealing with something that turned out to not really be a problem.

Stress uses up cortisol. The news makes cortisol out to be a bad guy this week, but it really isn’t. Cortisol does a lot of very important jobs that help you deal with stress and keep your body in balance, and oh, support the immune system.

I used to be sick all the time. Several infections a year requiring antibiotics, I’d catch every single head cold that went by, and I’d spend months at a time silenced by laryngitis. A lot of that was fixed by correcting physical stress issues like food allergies. But in balance, fixing those food allergies also cleared up a lot of things in my head and lead to a generally more positive outlook, and I think that is just as important.

So if you find yourself constantly catching every passing cold and flu that comes by, check your stress levels, both physical and mental. If you can find those weak spots and shore them up, your life will be a lot more comfortable.

And you’ll save money on tissues. Just as a side benefit.